cryin fer twoo days ler.. ii dono wad ii wan.. felt so sad.. maybe ii shdnt promote.. den all dis about being proud and shit wun happen. rite? ii jus wish ii hab a shoulder fer me tuu cry on.. but no1 is there ferr me.. i seriousli don dare tuu tel anithin abt dis tuu anyone.. in case more probs rises.. since iim becux of my everitime talking-without-tinking den will happen de.. and dey say is my promotion den ii proud ler.. den mite as well shd nt promote rite.. haii.. eberi thing and everi thread of happiness within the 3mths jus vanished within 1 nite.. cry till i fell aslp ystd.. and today mornin in cls.. sorri tuu hab worried u fiona and sabb.. not on purpose..
ii dono when ii can tidy up my emotiions.. but maybe.. i guess.. i wun appear on dis fri and next fri ba..
too much qn marks are rising in my head.. ii din noe so manii ppl were spreadin rumours dat my attitude suck and ii gt attitude prob etc.. ii reali din noe!! ii din noe ii changed so much or ii hab been liike dat since.. hu cann iii tok tuu? she oso say dat she din heard frm qi dat ii kinda tok in e way dat backstabbed her.. ii onli rmbr tellin jasmine, delphine and chaileng and qi.. i noe its alot.. but ii jus tok as if im chattin.. ii reali mean no harm.. and ii din noe dat ii was overboard..
but hu will listen tuu me? wads on her mind? i dono.. do ii hab e courage tuu noe wads on her mind? no..
although i noe she wil nv ever get tuu see it.. but dis is on my mind..
IM SORRY!!
iim vexed.. off tuu vent my frustration on food ler.. take care..