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Friday, December 28, 2007

Just a random post.

I suddenly realised, its very difficult to know who is genuinely caring for you and who is not. Well, should we blame life for giving too little chances for us to prove that, or blame ourselves for not being able to realise it early, before we get hurt?

People who cared for you, might unintentionally hurt you. People who might not be trueful to you, tends to look like the caring one in front of you. How a hypocritical world is this? Life goes on and there are no forever friends. But i never believed in that.

All along, i hoped, i can still have my dearest friends company through marriage and till old age. WOW, it just seemed so emo huh?

HAI. School is starting, work is piling. Projects are on hand too. Just too busy.
Lastly, wish everyone have the best out of the remaining days of 2007, for you will never get it back again. xD

ps: Balloon, please give me the photos asap. im anxious to see em!! HAHA.

♥ 2:25 AM

Monday, December 24, 2007

Skipped work today. Kinda bad, huh?

Slept all the way to 12plus. Guessed im too tired these days. With lotsa quarrelling, crying and activities taking place, making me having a sleepless week. Till today, then i managed to have a longer sleep. Lucky for me, that theres no party today for me to conduct. Sad that i have less pay now. LOL.

Anyway, Christmas is coming! Time to exchange presents and celebration! HAHA. Delphine and i spent a sum on presents. HAHA. Im waiting for Christmas, for my friends to open the presents. Hopefully they will not kill me. xD

Anyway the first Christmas + 10mth anniversary present from my darling is a BIG Elmo!! HEE. Loves!

Anyway, im waiting for Christine to give me the photos that we have taken for that night! HEE. Lastly, today is Skline's 16th birthday today! OMG. Shes been waiting for so long. HAHA.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, SKLINE!
I love you!! xD

Counting down to Christmas, 2 days more..

♥ 7:19 AM

Saturday, December 22, 2007

Yesterday was a relatively fun night, i supposed. With lots of hilarious things happening, and accompany, and dancing too.

Yet recently these few days, there is always a problem. Im not your employee nor your maid. How could you use this tone to scold me always for these few days? Worst thing is that i never even did anything wrong. And there hasnt been any calls, messages nothing from you. And im being treated like transparent again huh?

So pissed off sometimes. Seriously. Deeply.

♥ 7:37 AM

Wednesday, December 19, 2007

What should be my emotions now? How should i be feeling now?

Mixed up feelings right now. Is basic respect given? Complacent is the word. Today is such a bad, long day. Not only for me, but other people too.

I feel so drained out, so sick, yet i cannot get to any sleep since last night. Gastrics is acting up, fever is coming. Everything is going against me.

I finally understood that, perhaps, if everyone is gonna act like a hypocrite, perhaps everyone will live off better. If im not going to be so persistant on my views as to how i deal with good and bad people, then perhaps my life will be much more easier.

Perhaps, tolerance to everything is the word, as what del says, to make your life better. But why isit that i feel the opposite sometimes? Perhaps, as she says, i have a bad temper. HAHA. But nevertheless, we should not blame, as i have understood, for we will meet more of these type of people in future. BUT, i just cannot stop rattling to make myself feel more comfortable. Im just a naggy pot. LOL.

Anyway, tommorrow will be a nice day, i hoped.

♥ 6:13 PM

Tuesday, December 18, 2007

I just wanted some decent comforting from you, but you never fail to disappoint me.

Some words were never meant to be said at a certain point of time; while the words which were meant to be said now did not came from your mouth.

What i need now, is your ability to boost my courage, for the future.

I realised that people do get complacent easily. Prove me if im wrong; for i have seen many examples around me and that includes myself.

But im seriously very glad; real glad today, that i had actually owned a lot of precious things in life, that not many can have, and i didn't know till today ; but yet gotten upset about a lot of things that i had no idea about too, like the future?

Who knows whats the future is holding for us? Happy or sad, its still a day. The time wont stop because of your unhappiness. And, of course, the time will not erase what you have owned too, if it is for real.

Feelings is a type of intangible asset. You cannot compare nor calculate it. It is a strong bond between people. Its difficult to build up such a strong bond, but im glad that i have it, not only with one or two person only, but many. Now, today, i seriously do realise what is FRIENDS for. The meaning is more than just company. It meant a lot more.

♥ 6:42 PM

This world is so hyprocritical, so sickening lar, with sickening people and sickening things happening.

Now i really understood, that people, can because of different purposes, be best friends with even the worst people, or people whom they dont liked. I just feel so disgusted. I thought people should be straight forward in expressing their likes and dislikes, and of course say no to the people they dont like, other den other usual circumstances.

And things just always dont go the way you wanted it to be, especially for me of course.

I just feel so dead, so depressed. I just hope everything turns out well in the future.

♥ 3:48 PM

Monday, December 17, 2007

OMG.. OMG.. its such a sweet day, today. LOL.
although it didnt really started quite well at the start..

I was so so drained out that i climbed out of bed at 8.15am!! LOL, When i was supposedly to work at 9am. LOL. Then went to store to realise that i was scheduled to work till 5pm when i told Adila that i had to go at 3pm. Luckily, Amelia was kind enough to call mag down to help, and even more LUCKILY that the party at the end called to cancel. LOL.

The LUCKIEST thing is that the 2 parties today were considered small and were nice hosts! Especially the latter one, for her girl is so sweet!! Shes not scared of me, a stranger to her though, given that shes only three! LOL. And i believe she will grow up to be a pretty girl. LOL.

The latter party had an Elmo cake from Polar, and it was so sweet smelling, but it costs $120!! LOL. Zaza and i were hoping that we would have a share of cake, and indeed we have!! AHHA. The host is so nice to ask us to distribute among ourselves the remaining cake. LOL.

LASTLY, the host still give me $15 bucks of tip and Zaza $5!! LOL. Its such a goodie goodie sweet day man. HAHA. At least, it brighten me up from my broody mood in the morning. LOL.

Lets see the pictures..

The BIG Elmo cake..

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The birthday gal with her dearest best friend.. The bday gal is on the right..

And this is just a random photo of Jessie, which is taken some days back.

♥ 10:44 AM

Saturday, December 15, 2007

Im so sickening upset lar.

WHY? i also dont know. Sometimes i really wonder if im diagnosed with any mental illness. HAI.
I feel very scared, very sad, for i dont even know why?

I feel scared to be left alone, I feel sad when no one is here to accompany me. I need someone by my side all the time. I dont want to be left out in a crowd, I dont want to be so left out that no one remembers me at that point of time and etc.

What is this? Is it an illness? Or a pyschological barrier? Or just a mindset problem? I feel that im just so sickening having mixed up and confused feelings now. Im just worried, that I have no company.

Its pouring everyday..

♥ 1:18 PM

Thursday, December 13, 2007

OMG.

exams are over! holidays are here! YAY!
was out with del and balloon just now. HAHA. we were not that hyper at the beginning, but we were so lucky to bump into the Mango Sales!! OMG. all the apparels are going at 50% off! HAHA. its such a good deal, and the 3 of us were doing "auntie" shopping. LOL. Like the aunties throwing all the clothes around to get a nice one and etc. HAHA. cannot imagine that we did that. HAHA. after that we were so hyper active, that in the bus the 3 of us were laughing like mad.

One of the classic jokes was by Del..

Del: I dont glow, I grow.

HAHAHA. She was so loud in saying this on the bus. I bet we will hit the headlines of being the maddest on 190 for today night. LOL.

Before that we were having Pepper Lunch, and the most unbelievable thing was that Balloon was the first one to finish her food. LOL.

Okay, today's ELS is so saddening. I was late for the paper, yet i was so lucky. ONE minute before Subra locked the door, i rushed in, and nearly hit him when i was opening the door. And then Yiping was there telling me that i was so lucky. HAHA.

LOL. Subra cheated our feelings. He said that the Common test was only tested to chapter 4, yet questions from chapter 5 came out. AHH! And most of us have no confidence for that paper. I hope we dont get hanged. LOL.

LASTLY, i wanna go and cut hair!! Im waiting for the dino to accompany me!! HAHA. Its such a lucky day today. HEH. stay tuned.

Rain rain go away, go and rain at duckie's head. . . LOL!

♥ 2:23 PM

Wednesday, December 12, 2007

OMG. AHH!! im going crazy. Anyone cn lend me a listening ear straight right now? it seems like everyone is busy right now, and i have no one to talk to.

HAI. i was very happy this morning. Woke up early, light-heartedly, fresh mind, saw the Fiona pig at busstop, used my Econs text to hit her head, had a small chat, was early for school, happy to see Mr ong and vice versa, and Econs paper was easy, my friend and i come out early and had a small chat, i went off and then had Macdonalds breakfast.. and then the upsetting thing comes..

Why it always seemed to be like my fault?
Being Late - bad attitude, no call, no apology, explanation came late. Isit a sign of feeling that hes not wrong? Perhaps i had been overbearing but i was definitely very unhappy that i missed the tv drama yesterday night.

Today skipped exam - bad attitude, feel that he has nothing wrong. and i was merely nagging at him at KAP, and it seemed like it is such an embarrassing thing that i cannot say out, and showed me attitude. AHH! Sometimes i really wonder, who is the one taking the diploma? Later hes gonna take MC and then when his school dont approve, and the doctor never indicate that the MC was to be written "unfit for exam", he'll be bloody pissed off and starts cursing again. AH AH AH!

Im not gonna care if hes gonna kill me that im posting this online, for im really damn pissed off lar. I feel that im talking alot more to my friends then to him. I barely said 10lines to him recently, because calls and smses to him were neither answered nor replied.

Perhaps i should stop nagging, then it wont reflect like its all my fault for being too kpo.
Suddenly, today is a sunny day, finally, for once.

♥ 4:31 AM

Tuesday, December 11, 2007

Disappointed. Real disappointed. Not even a call.

Whats happening to the veins of my body? Start aching here and there, and also my gastrics. So so bad. Its just like 10more hours to my econs test, and i havent studied. HAI.

OMG. time to start studying. IWD wasnt that good, but it wasn't that bad either, except for the essay questions, which sent me to my doom. LOL.

ahh!! 9am tomorrow, so so early.

Anyway, just now i was out with del, balloon and cheekit. Walking around to find balloon's best appropriate outfit, as well as to service her phone, but too bad, there was no stock for her keypad and she has to wait for 2-3 weeks. BAD service! haha. We had a variety dinner at Taka just now. HAHA, and our dinner includes japanese noodles, takoyaki, durian pancake and icecream! (all share with del, to divide out the calories! if not it'll be fattening! LOL!)

Del and i with our Japanese noodles! Yummy!
Ps: Del is acting camera-shy! LOL.

Our ICECREAMS! Its low fat, 100% natural and it taste so good!

Del's, Balloon's, Mine as follows.. LOL. guess what ice cream flavours did we eat?

Okay, stay tuned to further updates, after my econs test tomorrow..
The weather is so cold, just as how my heart is feeling. So so cold..

♥ 3:19 PM

Monday, December 10, 2007

OMG.
im still trying to sqeeze some theory on IWD into my head, but it just doesnt seemed to get through. IM DEAD.

AHH! save me, i dont wanna fail..

♥ 4:47 PM

Sunday, December 09, 2007

353th post of this blog;

Im so sad, so disappointed. I think i have a limited company of vocabulary words. HAI. Things changes, life changes.

People might say he or she is your biggest enemy in life, and the next moment, they turned out to be the look-like bestest friends.

People might say you're his or her dearest, but they always disappoint you.

People might promise you something, yet it was never fulfilled.

People might say they can give you time, but they always didn't.

People might say they will be always be there for you, either physically or vocally, yet you're always talking to the air instead of them, or that they will never pick up your calls or reply your smses when you need them.

And there are even a lot a lot more, which is worth mentioning. But im too lazy. LOL. But i realised and understood that its very impossible to desire for surprises and presents given as a form of nice gesture or love.

Anyway, enough of my logic, on thursday, we went to Peinsular for balloon to buy her cardigans. After which, we had our dinner at Sushi Don. Yesterday my gals and i went to shopping! but only del and i were productive. HAHA. it was happy shopping with her, always. I think only out with her, then i can find the things that i wanted to buy. LOL. best shopping partner! ;) And then we went to Ajisen to have our feastful dinner, and Jiaxingg was dragged into taking silly photos with me and del. HAHA. okay, let us allow the pictures to say more..

Dinner at sushi Don..

Mine..

Del's..

Balloon's..

Mag's..

Banana Tempura..

Del and i's silly faces..

Del, Jiaxing and me..

Okay, lastly i hope everyone can wish me all the best for my common tests!! =)

♥ 8:31 AM

Thursday, December 06, 2007

HELLO! im sure everyone misses me now.

AHH. im so busy with my homework and studying, that i have no time to catch up with my shows. LOL:> Romantic Princess and Dark Sugar Macchiato. LOL. OMG. im sure if you watch the latter show which is by Lollipop, you will sure love them. They are so so cute, especially Ou quan and Wang zi. HAHA, and the show is so funny. LOL.

OMG. i so so so love my LAW lecturer! HAHA. del knows why. hes so so nice. how i wish hes my lecturer every semester. LOL.

Okay, tomorrow it will be my PLW common test. Everyone, wish me luck okay? LOL. and lastly, my dearest apologies to my dear friend, doggy Renjie, for not attending your celebration yesterday. HAHA. my relative came to me yesterday, so sorry. LOL. but still wanna say HAPPY belated BIRTHDAY, doggy!

YAY, later i will have a surprise. HAPPY HAPPY! ;) hope its a nice surprise im awaiting for.

♥ 3:03 AM

Sunday, December 02, 2007

FREAK. lol. its the 1st day of Dec. and my dear friend is back from Philippines! LOL.

haha. i just heard from my dearest friend that someone told us that we have changed. did we? really? aha. i think is that someone who has changed instead of us. lol.

OKAY, del and i are mugging hard now in school. Cant believe that we are in school on this fateful saturday. BUT for the sake of our results, we have to study hard. HAHA. good luck to us.

Its such a hot day.. ;)

♥ 6:39 AM

Saturday, December 01, 2007

OMG. what is happening to all the tagboards? LOL. irritating. ha.

Okay, i think im going to lose my job at Kid's Cafe, so what to do? Its time to find new job liao. HAHA.

Common Tests are coming. Real soon. And i dont even have any confidence that I will do well, especially for my ELS. hai.

Okay, yesterday we went to celebrate Beauty Jialing's birthday, and guess what? It was a hilarious evening. We all had so much stuff to laugh and crap about, and when we went to Lau Pa Sat to eat, we also have a lot of interesting things happening, for e.g., The duck eating the banana and vice versa. LOL.

And perhaps due to insufficient hours of sleep these few days, i was so drained ystd and so was del and we are already falling asleep at the Merlion. LOL.

And therefore, i slept for 9.45hrs on my bed, not inclusive of the time i was sleeping in the bus on the way back with my dear dear, Elaine. LOL. Im ABIT energetic now. But my eyes seemed to be acting strangely, especially my eyelids. LOL.

Ahh. Today is a so relaxed day. With one hour of econs lesson, and the nice nice CRM lesson. HEE. Oh ya, i've to remind myself to do the ranking for the IS modules. HEH. But the IS module for next sem is gonna be 4hrs man. Im confirmed dropping dead. LOL.

Okay, stay tuned for more updates. ;)

♥ 6:20 AM