Simplicity is beauty.

die die die!! ii have been slacking..!! wads happening tuu me??

arghh.. ii mux study ler.. mid yr exams start next tues. is onli 5more days from now.. arghh.. ii don wan tuu fail.. =(

tmr deres my science practical exam.. arghh.. can ii pass..? =( ii have no high hopes fer physics though. hai. 1 person alone tuu do practical. my god. dont dare tuu tink.

hai.. why do ii feel so lost..? ii mux make myself study. no matter wad.

♥ 11:32 PM

heyhey..

okie.. let me start from sat.. ii woke up earli in e mornin like a zombie. haha. den rushin fer dance n blah. and watching a dance performace called "Burn The Floor". Its v nice. haha. dey displayed 30different types of dance styles. gt sexy, graceful and more. ha. but dey r all so experienced. it seems like a musical. its held at e suntec convention hall. its a nice performance. which a huge group of crew. dey do couple dances like waltz, salsa and more. most of the dancers are frm australia!! arghh.. lookin at em.. i wished i could dance like em as well. den after dat went tuu work.. happi tuu c saiful.. haha.. long time nv c him ler.. he said wanna go out next time.. ha.. so junaidah better don jealous. haha.. we oso gt take foto. e sat evenin passed all tuu fast.. ii waited fer joel after work til 12plus. 1st time he so gentleman wait fer me tuu board e bus b4 goin home. haha. guess wad we tok abt when we r waitin fer bus. CONTACT LENS. lol. haha.

sun mornin. 6plus wake up le. 1st time i was so earli. ha no la. i was meetin del tuu go work fer 8am. but we r meetin magdelene oso. but i 4gt. den i tot meet at my hse busstop. i slowly walk dwn sia. until magdelene msged tuu ask me where am i. den i realised it. ha. i so blur rite? lol. den we toked n luff on e bus.. den reach dere. all late. den 1st time michelle so gd. ask us punch in at 8.30am. so mani crew punchin in at 8.30am. i of course wearin the S.T.A.R uniform was goin tuu do SA job. so bored in e mornin at first, due tuu no ppl. after dat ii do til like hell.. runnin up n dwn fer balloons, coffee tea refill blah. ha. magdelene was so lac n me was so hectic. haha. den 11am party was quite a success. the host said will write me a complimentary letter. woo. speakin abt dat. i finally gt a COMPLIMENTARY LETTER!! yay!! ha. i was so happi. it complimented me n my topcats hu r joel n junaidah. but special emphasis on me n joel. so happi. aniway jingser came bck ler. quite happi. hee. cux no nd work so much. ha. no la jokin. alot of changes hab been made. she was kinda goin crazy ystd i tink. haha. cux our standard is dropping.. lol..

den noon meet ida n sabb at bugis. of cux me n del v unusual. are late. haha. den we go buy wallet, watch movie. we watch "Take The Lead". this movie reminded me of the dance performance "Burn The Floor" on sat cux e dance styles dey do r similar. haha. after watchin dis movie makes me wanna learn ballroom dancin more..!! den we went tuu bugis street. well. as usual, im e one wid e most no. of shoppin bags. haha. and of cux i unwillingly bought a jumbo suit. ha.

mon. today. sch is as normal. well. delfine is unlucky. fer her cls. her el paper 1. ms ng is gonna mark em down fer deir format. well. it can be a proposal but ms ng wun allow. so dey quite suey la. haha. after sch. del n i hab tuu take the CL paper1 mock exam. turn out tuu be dat within e 2hrs we r giben. we completed within 1hr. with e 2 parts. ha. as usual del n i are always e fastest. so its okie. haha. den we went tuu buy donut n home sweet home.

speaking abt donut. dono why. recently i hab a cravin fer 7-11's donut almost everiday!! haha. eatin donuts makes me feel like a kid again. haha.

aniway now iim gonna eat my kfc-pizza hut delivered food!! haha. bye!! don miz me..!!

♥ 7:29 PM

heyhey..

okie.. let me start from sat.. ii woke up earli in e mornin like a zombie. haha. den rushin fer dance n blah. and watching a dance performace called "Burn The Floor". Its v nice. haha. dey displayed 30different types of dance styles. gt sexy, graceful and more. ha. but dey r all so experienced. it seems like a musical. its held at e suntec convention hall. its a nice performance. which a huge group of crew. dey do couple dances like waltz, salsa and more. most of the dancers are frm australia!! arghh.. lookin at em.. i wished i could dance like em as well. den after dat went tuu work.. happi tuu c saiful.. haha.. long time nv c him ler.. he said wanna go out next time.. ha.. so junaidah better don jealous. haha.. we oso gt take foto. e sat evenin passed all tuu fast.. ii waited fer joel after work til 12plus. 1st time he so gentleman wait fer me tuu board e bus b4 goin home. haha. guess wad we tok abt when we r waitin fer bus. CONTACT LENS. lol. haha.

sun mornin. 6plus wake up le. 1st time i was so earli. ha no la. i was meetin del tuu go work fer 8am. but we r meetin magdelene oso. but i 4gt. den i tot meet at my hse busstop. i slowly walk dwn sia. until magdelene msged tuu ask me where am i. den i realised it. ha. i so blur rite? lol. den we toked n luff on e bus.. den reach dere. all late. den 1st time michelle so gd. ask us punch in at 8.30am. so mani crew punchin in at 8.30am. i of course wearin the S.T.A.R uniform was goin tuu do SA job. so bored in e mornin at first, due tuu no ppl. after dat ii do til like hell.. runnin up n dwn fer balloons, coffee tea refill blah. ha. magdelene was so lac n me was so hectic. haha. den 11am party was quite a success. the host said will write me a complimentary letter. woo. speakin abt dat. i finally gt a COMPLIMENTARY LETTER!! yay!! ha. i was so happi. it complimented me n my topcats hu r joel n junaidah. but special emphasis on me n joel. so happi. aniway jingser came bck ler. quite happi. hee. cux no nd work so much. ha. no la jokin. alot of changes hab been made. she was kinda goin crazy ystd i tink. haha. cux our standard is dropping.. lol..

den noon meet ida n sabb at bugis. of cux me n del v unusual. are late. haha. den we go buy wallet, watch movie. we watch "Take The Lead". this movie reminded me of the dance performance "Burn The Floor" on sat cux e dance styles dey do r similar. haha. after watchin dis movie makes me wanna learn ballroom dancin more..!! den we went tuu bugis street. well. as usual, im e one wid e most no. of shoppin bags. haha. and of cux i unwillingly bought a jumbo suit. ha.

mon. today. sch is as normal. well. delfine is unlucky. fer her cls. her el paper 1. ms ng is gonna mark em down fer deir format. well. it can be a proposal but ms ng wun allow. so dey quite suey la. haha. after sch. del n i hab tuu take the CL paper1 mock exam. turn out tuu be dat within e 2hrs we r giben. we completed within 1hr. with e 2 parts. ha. as usual del n i are always e fastest. so its okie. haha. den we went tuu buy donut n home sweet home.

speaking abt donut. dono why. recently i hab a cravin fer 7-11's donut almost everiday!! haha. eatin donuts makes me feel like a kid again. haha.

aniway now iim gonna eat my kfc-pizza hut delivered food!! haha. bye!! don miz me..!!

♥ 7:29 PM

heyhey.

ii today promised tuu help joanna blog about mr n mrs arif. ha. ppl working in KAP will noe la. haha.

sabb n ida.. u all mux watch next tues de "xiang de mei 2" becux dey r modelling a top which looks identical tuu dat time e may tan "japanese" top. haha.

jingser cuming bck on sun.. dono why ii feel so pressurized. maybe scared of being sclded by her? maybe dis n maybe dat. hai. die. but gd dat i don nd wrk like hell.

suddenli i realised sth tonight as i returned home tonight. im v scared of places dat i have never been b4 if im alone or not frequently going. today i at batok. i felt v scared n lonely. iif im nt wrong, its after my p6 drowning incident. ii will have nitemares sumtimes about being stranded or cant seem tuu be going aniwhr at a strange place dat i have never been b4. it reali scares me. sumtimes im v scared. wad if i cant get home? hai.

aniway i bought a creative zen mp3. it cost me $169. i bought an orange one. sabb no nid jealous. ha. lol. joking. we walked tuu creative building tuu buy. i mux tank peiling n delfine fer acc me. ha. delfine is so scared of a small wooden bridge. well it seemed unstable but me n peiling crossed it ler. but delfine.. haii.. shi bai.. *disappointed*

iim being more n more unhappi as life goes on. n dats e reason why i chose orange over purple. tuu me, orange is a color of happiness, cheerfulness. i hope dis mp3 can always bring me smiles.
ha. will it? lol. i dont want tuu look fer my prince charming. im tired. very. aniway. i wont be able tuu find him de.

♥ 10:27 PM

heyhey. dono why dese few days lost my appetite tuu eat..

aniway jus finished watching the taiwan drama serial "The Prince Who Turns Into a Frog". nice show. haha. last time onli left ending nv watch. dis time get tuu c. its so drama n so sweet. both funni n sad n happi. i rmbr jus now crying til so jialat. when Shan Jun Hao left TianYu. ha.

dis kinda romance is everi ger wans de ba. but sumhow it wil nt happen in real life. although ppl always say life is a like a drama. but seriousli. hu will be so blessed tuu habb such a fun n loving romance chapter in ur life? ha.

now in dis world. hu cares abt love n care aniway? ppl cares about money. hai. hu cares abt my feelings? ii feel so abandoned. suddenly. how ii wish ii habb a guy like the main lead in e show. ii will be happi till i die. ha. but wait long long ar. ha.

aniway. recently life is getting more n more stressed. gettin more n more tired. no matter how much i slp. am i gettin a sleeping disorder? ha. maybe yes maybe no. aniway. i jus feel so tired. when can ii stop n rest instead of always on the go.?

♥ 10:28 PM

heyhey..

finalli iim off from e 3days hard wrk.. imagine within 3 days conducting 12parties.. each day repeat 120times of "hi, wads ur name? wad do u like tuu eat? u wann cheeseburger,nuggets or fish dippers? u wan fries? wad drink do u want? and more.. fer 3days dat wil be 360times.. omg.. so mani times..

haha.. but ystd managed tuu let loose wid junaidah, balloon and roy. ii ask balloon wad type of christian name is suitable den she say queeniie. and ii tink dis name is cute. so ii will adopt dis name.. haha.. everi bodi don be shocked okie? haha..

so much hw stackin on us.. and exams r cumin soon.. we r so sTRESSEd.. lol..

not enuf time ler.

♥ 7:35 PM

heyhey..

today nth special.. due tuu my leg.. nv go dance.. lol.. but forget tell teacher.. haha.. den after school.. nth lo.. today FNN lesson was fun.. shd ii say everi time its fun.. ystd we went tuu eat ice cream together.. deres me, sab, ida, del, iifa, fiona and shiyun. we all tried mint choc, tartufo, belgium choc, dark choc, hazelnut.. all dese choc icecream r so nice.. but e nicest is tartufo and hazelnut dat we wanna eat again today!! haha.. if u all wanna noe wad shop is dat.. its e new small ice cream shop located in plaza..!! go try now.. haha.. tartufo reminded us of ferrero rocher while hazelnut reminded us of kinder bureno and ferrero rocher.. so nice!! haha..

ii dont want him tuu sms me again ler. if hes gonna talk abt her again. u all mite tink iim jus jealous of her. but ii dont. shes my best fren. but ii feel irritated. ii can be dere fer him if he habb problems.. but tuu me.. he treat me like.. when he nd me.. he sms me.. and its always abt sum1 iim close tuu.. isit a way tuu get info? den don nd throw me again.. iim not a toy.. ii habb feelins.. but no1 will noes dat..

dese days have been slackin.. iim so tired.. lol.. haha.. fri workin again.. but nvm.. saiful is ard..*

♥ 9:50 PM

heyhey..

iim as usual.. so tired.. haii.. perhapps ii mux reali wait till after Os.. den can habb a good break.. its stil so long.. hai..

iim sick n tired of a busy lifestyle sumhow.. but a so-free lifestyle oso bored.. so how..

haii.. ii want tuu meet my dream guy hu will understand me.. but its gonna be a long wait.. hu will like a ger with nth good within? no looks, no qualities, nothing.

iim dreaming again.. wanna be a singer..? fat hope. actor..? no chance. dancer..? cant be.

although expertisin in tourism n hotel management is also my interest.. but wad ii want is tuu be a successful singer, actor, dancer.. haii..

but ii noe ii cant habb em.. iim onli suited tuu be a poor student..

a ger dat nobodi cares..

♥ 9:02 PM

heyhey..

fri..
ii guess i shd start bloggin frm fri.. ting left us ler.. tuu USA.. v sad.. but jus cant seem tuu cry.. onli can feel my heart v pain.. haii.. den at nite.. he msged me.. and tel me he was so sad.. he kept crying.. he tld me he liked her back.. iim heartbroken..

sat..
mornin habb awards day performance.. waited v long fer our turn.. habb fun on stage.. was concentratin on ms yeo e whole time.. cux e 1st teacher ii was lookin at was may tan and ii found dat ii cnt dance lookin at her.. so ii changed tuu ms yeo. dono why she keep luffin.. if ii can spot ms kuek den look at her le.. haha.. after e performance den rush tuu work.. saw saiful.. was late though.. but end up jaga e 80kids party wid him.. e kids were so babaric.. even sum1 so short like me.. stil habb tuu hold e tray of presents high up.. it was so tirin.. haii.. den e remainin parties were good.. as saiful n ii merged our powers and we habbed fun!! haha.. wid saiful ard.. is reali alot more humourous.. =) den get tuu noe dat he do dance.. n we habb alot of similarities.. ha..

sun..
nth much special.. as usual ii was late.. den we started conductin 11am tuu 3pm's parties.. most suck man.. haha.. den chiuyen asked him. he say he donwan promote.. which means me n saiful is gonna die.. haha.. me n saiful habb been so close til we r so gd man.. haha.. hes such a nice "SISTER".. haha.. with him ard.. my sky wun fall.. aha.. can u iimagine we r so gd til we can share a piece of nugget? ha. lol.

now.. habb tuu go n do hw and key siao ler.. haii.. iim jus so mentally tired.. iim about tuu collapse n cant take it le.. on e bus on sat tuu work.. ii was dere tinkin.. why other ppl can slp play blah habb e whole wkend tuu rest.. and me.. workin n runnin ard.. ii gt dance, work, sch, hw and blah more commitments.. whole wkend e free time ii habb is travellin time on buses and sleepin and its like onli a few hrs.. iim so tired.. mentalli n physicalli.. ii nearli wanna cry.. wonderin why am ii so pitiful? iim onli 15.. why other ppl 15 no nd bear e stress of workin blah. and ii habb tuu?? haii.. other ppl habb a shoulder fer em when dey r tired.. either boyfren or famili.. me? iim grateful if ii cum bck hm and my parents r quiet.. or nv wanna hit me again.. haii..

iim tired.. really..

♥ 9:50 PM

heyhey..

long time no blog.. so i shall start from fri.. ii actuali don wanna go de.. but stil end up goin.. but in e end habb a fine time.. wid ting dey all.. dey all played funni games blah.. but worst thing is ii habb tuu sing duet wid sheng qiang.. haii.. den we sit on jasmine's ge ge's lorry back home.. wa.. blow us all like potianaks.. haha.. jingser oso dere sayin jasmine.. haha.. all habb a gd time.. jas oso bought a new laptop.. so heavy.. haha..

sat.. saiful attached tuu KAP.. abit shocked though.. but happi tuu c him.. he taught me quite alot ba.. or shd ii say mayb ii feel comfortable wid him ard.. haha.. seems like even if conductin e worst party is oso fun.. hah.. he helped me alot.. ha. ii treat him as kakak. haha. so dats why we r so close. haha.. dis wkend and so on hes cumin again.. lookin 4ward.. cux whenever hes ard.. u wil hear my laughter.. haha.. he danced those sexy dances dat time on sat.. which made ppl studyin outside e party rm tuu stand on deir chairs tuu find out wads happenin inside.. lol..

ystd.. stil nt bad.. dis wkend ii gt pretty gd results fer my parties.. as all outstandin except fer 1.. so jialat.. at nite.. haii.. my dad use hammer hit my leg. siao rite.. now ii habb phobia n don dare tuu tok tuu him.. imagine ur wei da de daddy hit u like dat.. it has tarnish e image le lo.. iim so sorri dat ii startle sum of u.. haii.. but tanks fer pickin up my calls..

today.. nth much.. cux ii excused half way frm sch.. ms kuek noe abt my leg injury and ask me tuu go home.. tmr deres a full dress rehearsal.. shd ii go? ii dono..

haii.xx...x.. iim tired... realli tired...

♥ 9:28 PM