Simplicity is beauty.

Saturday, October 27, 2007

Okay, whats broken cannot be mended back so easily. How true.

Nothing special happen recently. haha. except alot of expensive dinner again. Monday had cafe cartel again and wednesday sakae dinner. OMG. Jessie, del, balloon, we must stop! If not we will go broke by just eating. LOL. Hope tonight with fiona and del is not another expensive dinner. Haha.

Okay, people close to me will know that i have changed my phone to U700 Samsung. Its really a pretty phone man, have not regretted choosing this. HAHA. Why did i get this phone? Because i signed MIO plan le.

YAY. next time i can stay at home and youtubing liao. HAHAHA.

Okay, im uploading the Birthday party photos. Though really very late, but i hope all of you will have a look at how comical some of our faces are. (of course, i will not upload my unglam pictures.) HAHAHA.

Looking forward to 6/11, for they will come with the MIO modern already!! YAY!
And, Happy late 8mth anniversary to my special someone. ;)

♥ 3:38 AM

Monday, October 22, 2007

Disappointed? Sad? Lose faith?

Whatever you can name. Im just utterly wordless. And just too tired. Being the only star on a weekend can be so particularly tired, and its like 1yr plus since i did that again. Hai.

I cannot imagine you can be so thicked skinned. But i did not help on your account.
Del knows who. HA :>

♥ 1:50 PM

Sunday, October 21, 2007

WOO :>

Finally got all my pictures from Christine. Guess this is the only happy thing in the whole day.

I PROMISE, to do what i had decided to do, if YOU decided to force me to a dead end. I had always respected you, but you made me utterly too disappointed. I dont get any decent understanding from you. And you want me to get manipulated by you? FAT HOPE.

As i said, in the past some things you said were right, and i really listened and reflect and know that that was my mistakes and kept quiet. BUT NOW, its not my mistake, and you are not giving me chance to explain and making me do whatever i dont feel like doing and whatever you deem fit for whatever reason you think might be correct.

IT just suck afterall. This goes to show that theres not many good people around on this world, though many pretended or look like one. If you really genuinely met one, remember to cherish him or her. For whom you might not know, the nearest, the most respectable one, is the one trying to manipulate you, to make you do his or her bidding.

LIFE JUST SUCKS. recently.

♥ 1:41 PM

ME, ME AND ME!

Why are you all always showing favouritism?
IM SICK YOU KNOW? IS ALL THESE MY FAULT?

HATE ALL THESE PEOPLE.

i shud just leave. its time.

Labels: ANNOYED.

♥ 12:02 PM

Friday, October 19, 2007

HEY!
okay, Last saturday we have Long John Silvers and Starbucks for high tea, with duck and balloon. Sunday we went to Kbox, with balloon and jessie. Monday we had Cafe Cartel for dinner instead of cakes, for the four of us. Tuesday, Korean food with duck and jessie. Wednesday, Sakae sushi with duck and fiona. Walau, expensive dinner and meals all the way man.

Let me show u some photos of the Sakae sushi dinner. HAHA. Unfortunately, i cant upload the video. But if u want u can get it from my phone. Its a damn funny video, on the battle of mochi. But seriously, i hate their new mochi man. In the past they offer us mochi ice cream thats straight from the menu. Now they offer us another type which simply sucks. EE.

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Guess who is this? LOL.

Answer revealing..

Can you see her? And on the table, thats how much we ate for that day only.
DO YOU BELIEVE?

And this is what i took at the arcade at Causeway Point. Did you see something prominent?

See, this is all our idiotic acts dat day. And Fiona has the biggest appetite man. LOL.

I seriously love the phone, w580i. But the reviews given were not as good. Basically, the best commented Sony Ericsson phone was K810i. It was said to be the most perfect phone ever, but the most regretted thing is that it should be a walkman phone. Hai.

That one is expensive man. But theres a new Nokia phone call 6500 or something like that. That one is pretty in the goldly bronze colour. Such an high class phone, but i dont think i will want that. HAHA.

Anyway, im feeling damn sick now man. Every part of me is aching, no matter whether isit internal or external. Let me recover fast, if not i dont know how am i suppose to work tmr?
Going to see the doctor for the 2nd time later. I saw the doctor for the first time yesterday, and after taking the medicine, i feel like i got worst. Hai.

PLUS yesterday wasn't a very good day either. Lots and lots of rubbish. PERHAPS i should really resign, and just leave this store in a pathetic state.

What for being so loyal to them, when they just scold whoever they like, in whatever way they want?

Things i've done wrong, i will quietly let you scold. But how about things that i've not done wrong? Plus, the tone is just so pissing off to me.

Now i seriously understand what is "Different people have different fates."

LOL. Okay, i will take care. Thanks.

Labels: Being pampered is a strong word.

♥ 3:14 AM

OKAY.

Dont know what to say. Health is getting worse. School's workload is piling up, though its still WEEK 1. Work having damn lotsa of problems too.

Seriously dont know whats gonna be next.

Tired, beat. Already feel like giving up on meddling with everything. Everything thats none of my business. Yet i just cant get my leg out of everything. Problems just come and come. Even if i wanted not to be in that mess, im stil into it. No running away, or should i say cant?

IM seriously very tired of guessing, saying, wasting my brain juice thinking who's the betrayer, whos the backstabber, whos fault isit, whos going to change, whos not, whos breaking promises and stuff.

Someone said that the problems that im encountering now are just kiddo problems and can be stopped if the troublemaker stops. I do agreed with him. In future, when you stepped into the adult world, it will be more complicated than now. Yet, we dont even know whos the troublemaker at first.

GUESS. GUESS and more guessing. I did so much of this, thinking and suspecting whos fault is it and such that im terribly annoyed and confused and dont even know whos the good one and whos not?

IM not angry, upset, harsh or whatever. Just feel so annoyed of all this kiddo stuff. Im a kid too, i admit. But its just that it just makes people way way too tired when we handle this type of things or problems too long, or too much.

Labels: difficult to be rebuilt., TRUST can easily be broken

♥ 12:59 AM

Tuesday, October 16, 2007

Okay, read someone's post, whom i think i better dont mention who.
i felt that what she said is real true, perhaps shes older, and have a more mature thinking than us, thus understands more about this realistic life.

Hypocrites. Who knows the person that i always confided in anot is one? Who knows that the one sitting beside me in class everytime is one? Who knows that the one i always work with is one? Its not written on their face, definitely if they are one they wouldnt show you either.

But who dares to say that he or she is not one too? For eg, even if its me, i might have been a hypocrite too. Well, perhaps is i dint want to know, perhaps is i dont even know.

But i believed once in everyone's lifetime, they would have been a hypocrite.

Someone told me this before, "The process of growing up is to master the art of being a hypocrite without being known to others." How true.

This thus makes people easily to be able to choose the wrong friends.

In every 10people, you can trust 5 wholeheartedly and bare your heart to them.
But in the end, how many will really support, stand by and never ever betray you?
You're considered very lucky to get 1, even. For some had none.

I might have been the one choosing the wrong friend to believe in, perhaps, in the past, or even now.
And the problems arising or existing recently and such really makes me wonder if someone whom i believed went behind my back to did something I or we didnt know.

Whatever isit, the incidents recently really makes me ponder so much.
The world is never innocent, at least not in the world im living at now.

♥ 1:18 PM

No point saying so much at this point of time.
No use.

Too tired to even make any comment on anything. Everything changes too fast. Too fast for people to catch it. Difficult to even differentiate whos good and whos bad, and whos e true one and whos e evil one. Im really tired, dont you, del? hai.

All the things are so clear, and the bad doesnt goes away but keep rising in power. So what for should i poke my leg in to the mess? No point when people thinking that its each others fault and making it such a big matter when its so small. No point making everyone quarrel and fight and such because of such a small matter.

Seriously, no point.

Suddenly, i feel so enlightened and feel that i seriously cannot dont grow up, for it just make me a easy prey.

Anyway e KL trip was pretty fun, and i seriously bought alot of stuff. And during the trip, we never forget someone so important and that is delphine.

For i wanna thank her for being there when im down, for being there to listen, and for being there to help. Thanks, 5yr chemistry friend! And to Jessie, Kahleng and Elaine too!!

Lastly, to him too.
ps: thanks dear; heeheex.

Okay, below are some pictures for everyone to enjoy. HOHOHO. Some are taken in KL, rest in Singapore. No worries, no RA. lol.

Delphine and I sleeping on the bus. So parallel. Ha. The angle we are tilting.

The 4 september babies! Me on the most right! HA.

Me and my beloved 5yrs friend!

Me, Jialing, Elaine at Neway Johor City Square, having K buffet!

HAHAHA. Pictures took at KL trip. See, i missed del so so much.

This is my beloved Jessie. The bag she's holding is Jiajun buy for her one.
HAHA. (actually, that is the used pinata from my party host! HA.)

And today is the first day of school and it seemed like this semester isnt that fun. And I've got one damn irritating ****** lecturer!! Strong accent man. Hai. And seriously, all the lecturers' have poor english and speak funny english, which is very weird. LOL.

IM DEAD FOR THIS SEMESTER, good luck to me.

♥ 6:00 AM

Wednesday, October 03, 2007

okay, i sincerely accept.

i hope we can make it up, cause no point arguing. im glad you realise your mistakes and hope you really do, and by time, change.

we cannot rush change, but we can see changes over time.

just wanna tell you that friends are there for you if you wanna confide, and im really sincere to rebuild the relation between the 4 of us, well if you want too..
talk to joanna, and patch up. you knew you lost her. as long as you can change, i think she can accept you again. as for me and del, you know you can talk to us, as and when you need us.

okay, i hope to see you change for the better.

♥ 2:02 PM

okay. im so fed up now. forget it.

sometimes i really do wonder. what are friends for? here to kill each other or something? people here are not saying that they are not giving you time to change. they are just pissed off by the way you handle things, as who you are.

and yep right, im the only one stressing you up wad. yep, i might be too harsh on last weekend, but think back, did you really really put in your best effort to even be a better person?

when i was teaching you about outdoor stuff, whos e one not responding to me? when you came down saying there was no memo stickers, who go into e star corner to find fer you? why not you climb in yourself? dont try to tell me there are ghosts inside. when we couldnt find the stickers, who go and take money and run down buy e post it stickersx and came up with alot of sweat and without any rest go and run the 318 dollars of adults order? and when yr kids order topcat was free did you ask her to help me? you get her to play e game! its yr job, you know. did you see any star doing this b4? especially when other people so needed help. and in the end, what did i get? not even a thank you. know what? even e host came to thank me fer running the adults order like hell for em. know what? topcats are always yr best helpers. dont treat em like shit like how you did previously, scolding em or picking at em like why they are so slow and etc.

okay, i was harsh about the outdoor b4 hand. sorry, but if you were me, wont u be scared that you will have to handle 160kids alone if u dat day dont want to run with me or scared like red pea that day?

i serious dont understand you. and not only me who dont. and dont think that its all our fault for blaming you or me for venting my frustrations on the blog. so u only see that they were the 2 who only can help you but not the rest like me or del, or even leng.

i do not mean to treat you with that attitude everytime. del said i was harsh and i tried to be better and i admit i did wad i can to treat u better already the previous weekends but yet i still cannot see any better changes in you. your attitude changes hot to cold or vice versa anytime anywhere you like. and on the sat evening it was really bad. i dont know why you cry and all that. i sometimes wanna talk sense into you too. but how, you tell me?

we all already feel like washing our hands off you. so its only up to u to think whether u stil deserve our concern anot.

AND SERIOUSLY ASK YOURSELF, did you ever confide in anyone of the 3 of us? you dont even wanna say anything to us. for all you care for are not us.

♥ 8:59 AM

okay. today is such a painful day.
del knows why. hai. stupid.

wow, almost all my lessons are at blk 34. other den IS at blk 50 and web design at 46. but good la. i guess i wont get lost or forget the classrooms. haha.

tired. dont ask me why. LOL.

hope its shine after rain now, hopefully. LOL. life without Sangari really just suck. Misses her so much. And joanne will keep pestering me to go back on weekdays, just because sangari is not around le. haii.

♥ 4:22 AM

i guess finally everything is shine after rain, hopefully.

god, today is a painful day. del knows why. hai.

♥ 4:03 AM