Living has been terrible these days. No job, no money, no love. NOTHING.
Has been frantically trying to hunt for a job, so that i can have money for my spendthrift family, which i dont know where has all the money gone to.
Have been sick for days, and not going to a doctor, because i dont feel like and because of some reasons.
Feeling darn upset recently over a lot of things. Its like a down period in life. There are people gloating now and hoping that i can be more unlucky. SO DOWN~
Sometimes i realised that I should just depend on myself more. Because i had realised, when you're down, although you can have friends to support u, but there is still a period of time when you are alone and depressed. At that point of time, you only have yourself to pull you through. Nobody will help you. How sad huh? This is because even your dearest family or friends or anyone can just hurl you with some sacarstic remarks and made you feel that you are just a bad girl with all the bad qualities.
Im such an asshole, huh?
Forget it. No point saying so much. Nobody cares anyway. Anyway, i hoped that tomorrow will be fun, with all of my girlfriends! I MISS YOU ALL SO MUCH! Okay, take care peeps and good night!