I fell asleep yesterday night because i was too exhausted from all the crying.

Somehow i cannot sleep tonight. I felt super depressed in the morning, but things started to get better in the afternoon where i was alone in Pasir Ris doing my unfinished work.

I am thinking of a lot of things, a lot of questions in my mind. Came across some blogs, makes me couldnt really fathom human minds, well it goes the same for mine too.

Sometimes i feel that i dont understand myself too. What do i really want? What do i really not want? What do i want to do? What makes me happy? Am i trying to deceive people around me and myself also sometimes by doing or saying some particular things? Am i running away from reality at times? What are the meanings of some things in life? Money? Love? Friends? Family?

There are a lot of things i couldnt understand. Couldnt understand how come sometimes some things changes even faster than the weather. There are 101 things that i couldnt understand.

But through these days, i understand one point. Humans are imperfect, and that goes the same for me and everyone else. But who really on this world can stand someone's imperfections? Its such a interesting question that literally stumped me because even i cannot stand the imperfect side of myself.

♥ 2:10 AM

I really dont know how.

Everything that i have did, that i have done went or are all wrong.

Thanks for everyone who celebrated with me for my 19th birthday. I really appreciate it. Thanks alot. And sorry to those who shared the presents for me.

I honestly thinks that the birthday is just not my day. Perhaps i should not celebrate from next year onwards. Because every year it just seemed so wrong.

♥ 12:32 AM

Work. Tuition. KAP.

The same routine every week. I am sick and tired of it.

Im seriously exhausted. I am not Iron Girl.

♥ 1:57 AM

Okay. Heres my wishlist. At least, these are the things which i think i need or want now. HAHAHA.

So ppl, please help me to fufil it. HAHAHA.

1) Money, money and more money! (nobody will ever think its enough.)
2) IC (I just lost it!)
3) Bags, bags and more bags! (My bag is falling apart soon!)
4) Sequinned pumps (My shoes are spoiling, and sequinned pumps looked real pretty! Provided i know how to take care. : )
5) Wallet (As i have said, i just lost it!)
6) Clothes, clothes and more clothes! (Girls will never say no to this! :D)
7) Makeup and cosmetics! (i welcome all kinds from nail polishes to mascaras! LOL!)
8) Thumbdrive? (Because im using Del's currently, hahahah!)
9) Spectacles (checked!)
10) Bomber Jacket (checked!)

Counting down to 2 more days... :D

♥ 12:45 AM

Fucking ass pissed off yesterday. It was such a super unlucky day yesterday. Lost my wallet, rained whether i went and stopped whenever i stopped. I cannot imagine i lost my wallet. I only managed to save my ezlink card. And my IC and the rest are all gone. Lucky that theres no money inside, but just the replacement of the IC will kill me. HAI. I hope a kind soul will return it to me. :(

Lets talk about something happier! My birthday is coming in less than a week. LOL. Im gonna celebrate with my family tomorrow. LOL!

My schedule for next week is super super packed man.

The whole week i will not be in the office but doing site visits outside.

Wednesday - Meeting Limin to celebrate.
Thursday - Meeting Leong to celebrate.
Friday (actual day) - Meeting girlfriends to celebrate.
Saturday - Meeting KAP friends to celebrate.

I think i will be super duper tired after work. LOL. Imagine whole day outside running around. LOL. Im gonna reach the last year of the teenage years. But im not alone. HEHEHE. Im the last among my girls. AHAHAH! OOPS!

I hope i will have the mo-ti-va-ti-on to post up the pictures after next week. I HOPED. LOL.

I did not know how i lost my wallet, but if its a pickpocket, i hoped his or her children next time will have no buttocks. LOL!

♥ 3:59 PM

*edits*

Im freaking tired.

Tuition on Tuesday evenings and Saturday mornings. KAP on Saturday afternoons.
Why am i so bloody hardworking? Im gonna die from exhaustion.

OMG. Im going out to site tomorrow again. Yesterday the trip to Pasir Ris Punggol nearly killed me. DAMN.

Tomorrow is to go to Tampines. Lets hope i will survive tomorrow. :(
My legs are breaking~

6PM, faster come. :)
I am going to spend my birthday at work, and not inside the office, but at site.
So shit. :(

♥ 10:45 AM

Im blogging at work! OMG. Unbelievable.

My boss is not looking. LOL. :P

Sometimes i just dont understand a lot of things, a lot of words, a lot of thoughts and also how come people just cannot let go of the past.

People come and go, things happened and passed, and i personally felt that theres more important and significant things to remember and to be happy about.

Whatever has passed is past. No matter how much you are going to say or talk about it or reminiscing it, its still the PAST. It will not change anything that is before this second.

People should let go of the past to be happy or become happy. Thats my opinion lar. In all, i feel that we should forgive and forget to be happy. :)

♥ 1:43 PM