I fell asleep yesterday night because i was too exhausted from all the crying.
Somehow i cannot sleep tonight. I felt super depressed in the morning, but things started to get better in the afternoon where i was alone in Pasir Ris doing my unfinished work.
I am thinking of a lot of things, a lot of questions in my mind. Came across some blogs, makes me couldnt really fathom human minds, well it goes the same for mine too.
Sometimes i feel that i dont understand myself too. What do i really want? What do i really not want? What do i want to do? What makes me happy? Am i trying to deceive people around me and myself also sometimes by doing or saying some particular things? Am i running away from reality at times? What are the meanings of some things in life? Money? Love? Friends? Family?
There are a lot of things i couldnt understand. Couldnt understand how come sometimes some things changes even faster than the weather. There are 101 things that i couldnt understand.
But through these days, i understand one point. Humans are imperfect, and that goes the same for me and everyone else. But who really on this world can stand someone's imperfections? Its such a interesting question that literally stumped me because even i cannot stand the imperfect side of myself.
♥ 2:10 AM