Dont know what to say. Health is getting worse. School's workload is piling up, though its still WEEK 1. Work having damn lotsa of problems too.
Seriously dont know whats gonna be next.
Tired, beat. Already feel like giving up on meddling with everything. Everything thats none of my business. Yet i just cant get my leg out of everything. Problems just come and come. Even if i wanted not to be in that mess, im stil into it. No running away, or should i say cant?
IM seriously very tired of guessing, saying, wasting my brain juice thinking who's the betrayer, whos the backstabber, whos fault isit, whos going to change, whos not, whos breaking promises and stuff.
Someone said that the problems that im encountering now are just kiddo problems and can be stopped if the troublemaker stops. I do agreed with him. In future, when you stepped into the adult world, it will be more complicated than now. Yet, we dont even know whos the troublemaker at first.
GUESS. GUESS and more guessing. I did so much of this, thinking and suspecting whos fault is it and such that im terribly annoyed and confused and dont even know whos the good one and whos not?
IM not angry, upset, harsh or whatever. Just feel so annoyed of all this kiddo stuff. Im a kid too, i admit. But its just that it just makes people way way too tired when we handle this type of things or problems too long, or too much.