OKAY, I HAVE EXPLODED. why? because im sick and tired of all the nagging by parents, by everyone. just sick and tired.
I finally BELIEVED in what is a honeymoon period for all couples and relationships. Mine is over. Quarrels and quarrels is what that fills our lives now. True though, someone told me that once we quarrelled, there will be the second, third, fourth time and so on. Relationship between us is somehow strained at times, and the feeling is not as nice as before.
I just want some surprises on the way, want some peserverence from you to show that you really care, want some hustling or something to see that you're really concerned, want some understanding of some sensitive things, want some recognition, and gain some understanding from someone dearly to you and important in your life. IM not angry with that someone, but just feel annoyed in a way or another. Not that i dont understand that the someone is not in good health and mood, but sometimes it just reach my level that i think that i feel like its so unfair, though i know its rude to say so. All these things seemed so so so far way, and non-existant in my relationship.
Perhaps you can say im greedy, self centred, selfish, childish and whatsoever u wanted to say about me. OR u might wanna say im not a good girlfren, at all, which i feel so too.
But sometimes, i just wanted the feeling of no matter what i do, there will be someone there for me. But it somehow seemed so not there now. And i hate it when you says those disappointing and worst words. So, those words can come out from your mouth so easily right? AND I SERIOUSLY HATE IT!
I dont know how, why, what. I only know, i just want back the old feeling.